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Jepay

my baby,my life
the reason I strive harder and
try to be a better person...Love you so much Bunini!!!

Jepay

It must have been in love why I was drawn to him in the first place.
He wasn't even close to my standards of an ideal man. But I dunno,love
moves in mysterious ways and so I thought. It didn't last that long, but
we had a love child. I know it was my fault why the relationship
didn't work. I expected a lot from him,and he was not driven to improve
himself,such a loser!We are so different in so many ways.And I didnt effort to make it work.
And now I can say there is no more feelings left,
If it hadn't been for my daughter I
wouldnt want anything to do with him.But he continues to hurt me.
Not becoz I still want him but due to the fact that he shows little love and respect
for our child. As a parent, you will always want the best for the child. They always comes
first in terms of priorities,he's a family man now,he should know.
I think I didn't know him well until today. He's so selfish,poor,self centered liar.
How could he hurt a part of him,he's a total loser and I curse him to death.
If that time comes, he will not be getting any respect from either of us. I hope he
rots in hell.

Jepay

I havent read the book but I definitely fell in love with the movie.
I love Edward Cullin,hehehe. Twilight is definitely a must see movie and a must read book.Falling in love with a vampire is kinda strange but who are we to judge. Aint there's a little vampire quality in all of us..I guess am just one of those people who got swept with the story huh..

Jepay

My ex team lead invited the rest of the former RMA team to her wedding next week to be held in Fernwood Gardens.
Another single lady I know to wed. As I look back when we first got together, we're all
single ladies from different walks of life. And lately one by one, each started to settle and have their own family. First it was Jing,then Carol,followed by Petch and Jem. And now Vannie.I wish them all well.But as much as I am happy for them, there is a slight pain coz I know it will not be the same again. They have their own priorities now and we can no longer do the things we use to enjoy, like shopping,flirting,partying..and a lot more.
Almost all my friends are  married  And I didnt realize it till early this year that ,Iam the only single girl left. But I dont mind. I love my life, and I have my pretty baby. Relationship is not new to me. I've had my fair share too,alas it didn't work for me as much as I wanted to. With all the uncertainties in this world. With all these going on,
I decided to enrol in masteral classes and I kinda enjoy it and makes me feel more secure and has given me a new perspective in life.
Sometimes if were in a middle of a conversation about family life, I feel lost and scared. But am a strong girl,Ive prepared myself for this.Am not getting any younger and getting married is not my priority I see it as an additional bonus if I meet some1 who prefers to spend the rest of his life with me.
But of course there is no complete happiness,sometimes amidst the success in career oppurtunities,it saddens me of not having some1 to share my merits,life is not perfect though.
Even married couples have their own frustrations too,am sure.
Ive been deprived of having a man in my life. First my dad,and up to this very day,I dream of how life may have been if he was around. And I thank Tatay for doing a wonderful job  filling in dad's position, though it didnt last that long. I'm used to being independent.At an early age, I was thought to battle life like a man.
I had a lovechild with a former beau,but it didnt work well,and now am raising my kid alone.
I tried other relationships too but It didnt work either. I dunno if it's me or maybe it was meant to be this way.
But I dont mind, I have always been independent and strongwilled. My only question is why me..At an early age and now, never been allowed to experience such wonders with a man...

Jepay

Last month of the year, the coldest month ever. Not just from the weather forecast,
but most of all, the feeling of anxiety is more pronounced and felt.With all the christmas rush,couples feeling theyre so in love,at least..the traffic jams,endless company parties,holidays,wedding invitations...and so on
Not that am complaining, am always looking forward to christmas,not becoz am spending it with a new love..
duh..but it makes me stronger everytime.Surviving christmas all alone is the toughest...with all the gift giving to the
inaanaks.Then after christmas,ther goes valentines,then after that there goes summer..
And June comes,the rainy season,feeling all wet and lonesome having to spend colder nights over and over,year after year..Oh what the heck..am happy to be alive..