September 12th, 2005
The love of my life

my baby,my life
the reason I strive harder and
try to be a better person...Love you so much Bunini!!!

my baby,my life
the reason I strive harder and
try to be a better person...Love you so much Bunini!!!
Am really falling for this guy..I dunno if he likes me but he's way younger than Iam
But he's smart,responsible,silent type. I just realized that in my 30 plus years existence
the ideal guy for me is tall,skinny and silent type with pretty eyes.
Most of my love interest are of this kind. But he's way too good for me.
Nevertheless I wish him the best and silently love him.
I just hope he loves me too.. I hope I can make him stay with me..
If only he knew, but I know most likely he's aware of how much I like him...
For now, I only wanted to be there for him..
It's the depressing season again..hehehe.
I dont mind being single,duh it's been awhile but I still cant help it.
I should know by now but I have been having these round about w/ a Guy in my office.Don't know if this is what I want or if I'm just mentally stimulated with how he tries to mentally challenge me. Or it may be that I was interpreting it the wrong way. So fuckin, mind boggling.If only I knew what he thinks,I wont be tormented this way..I can always go out with other guys but why am sulking over the one I cant have or can I possibly have ???Am a mess..
I dunno but I think I may have been alone so long
there's this guy I know whom I thinkis kinda showing some
interest in me.But I have been alone so long am not sure I can
be with some1 again. I just dont know how to relate to the oposite sex
especially if that person is kinda showing some interest.Maybe I dont like him
Or maybe am waiting for some1 I cannot be with. What a waste..
But I'd love to have some1 to accompany me to movies,shopping,dinners..
Oh well. I've been longing for awhile but why am I confused now..
Ive been wanting to go abroad, hoping to earn bigger bucks
I want to renovate our house in Proj 2. I need about 2 million
so help me god. I have been doin a lot of career evaluation these past
few years. I wanted a more stable and high paying job, and a
promising career as well. Just bought a 32 inch LCD TV for mom.
In all fairness, I have been working for only 6 years and Ive had
a lot of accomplishments in terms of monetary status.
Ive had my mom's & grandma's house renovated,I bought an owner
type jeep,I have high end techno gadgets,and some savings
My ultimate dream is to work abroad.