Jepay

Today I am scared to death, and am lifting my life to you oh Lord
I'm 33 years old and waiting for the final diagnosis of a disease
I've been battling for years,the doctor says the worst is yet to come..
I thank the lord for this wonderful life. I know I have abandoned him
these past few years but I never stopped loving him, I just didn't have the
time to show him how important he is to me.
I am still in a blur and can't comprehend what is about to happen.
I have repeatedly asked for his forgiveness for all my shortcomings..
to all the people I've hurt in the past,I am deeply sorry and for all those who
have hurt me,you have been forgiven.
All I ask from God is to give me time to prepare and be ready to whatever
his path leads me. I pray he gives me the courage to accept things I cannot change 
and for the people around me to have the healing in their hearts.

I'm writing this for my family to read one day when I can no longer write
especially for my beautiful daughter whom I hope I can see go thru her life
To my mom to spend more years with us, my brother to be strong for all of us
all my tito and tita to remember me dearly.
To my beautiful cousins, for sharing my life. My friends for never leaving my side,
I can never go through life without you..
I love you all and hope you will never 
forget me...